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my computer is so lag i want to bang it against the wall. basically this last week and this week's a total disaster. i'm failing all my tests terribly and i didn't finish the only test i even bothered to study for. plus i studied like mad.

i'm so not getting 65percent and above.

i'm doing everything wrong these few weeks. i want to just sleep in the whole day and not care about anything at all ahhh.

oh and not forgetting i found out the shitty new condo that's going to be completed by who-knows-when is going to block my beautiful view of the lovely scenery i see once i step out into the balcony. there goes my chance to see fireworks every year): anyway the fireworks are so pretty, ok basically the national day one sucks, but the one on saturday night was so so pretty! there's like glittery pink fireworks! hahaha oh and not to mention it was so long la.

i don't like my cello anymore. i like eunice's old cello hahaha. because my freaking cello's fingerboard is so low such that when you play high positions you need alot of strength to press. i just realised how much more strength i had to use practising those stupid notes on my cello when i was playing the school's one today. it's like suddenly so much more relaxed. ahh so irritating. chan keeps telling me 'do you notice your cello is so hard to play now???' and then i'll be like 'er?' he says the fingerboard goes down because i don't keep my cello in a place that's dry enough. yes it's the weather's fault, because it's too humid. now i understand why he keeps saying my cello is SO hard to play. omg arghhhh

and my freaking internet connedction keeps going on and off and on and off. i need a hammer to hit this stupid computer.

oh crap. piano lesson tmr and i haven't practised. i cannot wait for school exams to be over. ok i haven't even got my piano exam date. how great can life get

why is there nothing fun in my life anymore. it's like so boring. go to school, come home to get screaming sessions with your mum, or practise cello/piano, otherwise do homework. omg yes i am so tired of living (but no i am not going to commit suicide hahaha)

locus iste
a love so beautiful,